☂ It happens. It just does.
I don’t want you to take a picture of me alone because I need you in it. Just like, well, in life.
It’s not everyday that you take a good second look of yourself and realize that you are deserving to be loved in return.
With you, everyday’s a love moment. A discovery.
Kalí̱ Agíou Valentínou :)
#well.realize.our.dreams.soon,in His time. :)
☂ Sometimes for ONCE in your life, it’s nice to see your name on paper.
Sleek and clean.
❝ Innocence tinctures all things with brightest hues. ❞ -Edward Counsel
☂ A Fact: I definitely l♥ve saddle bags. They make me feel carefree :) I’ve been looking for the perfect one.
She made me cry today :’) An inspiration.♥
I am the middle daughter of my parents and the ‘single-est’ woman among my sibs. I smile a lot, in fact, most of the time. Some people would just wonder why I’m still smiling in the middle of nothingness. Perhaps, it’s just my way of letting things stay in bright hues instead of shading them in grays. I am imperfect, clumsy and I would self-diagnose myself as bipolar. I may be alive at one point but will shrink in a nutshell at another point. I’ve been through a lot and most of them are just battles of inner conflicts so you will never understand. So don’t try, it’s just a waste of your time but just be there and do nothing. I would greatly appreciate that. :) I can say that I’m selfish because I can never promise to anyone and then I think of survival and look forward…and then panic-that would make it all worse. Go comprehend. I guess experiences do teach and influence us in a lot of ways, some good, some bad, some open to new layers of discovery…Oh well… I live in frustration because I’ve been blaming myself for not fighting what I’d really love to do. But then again, thanks to great teachers, I’m taking it all back. Slowly and surely, I’ll replant the seeds that were long drought in the thirsty soil. Whoever discovered colors and gave them their names, please hear my plea. I owe something to all of you. And that’s something I’ll embrace for the rest of my life. Go figure…
Life is tough. It is, for sure. And it’s imperfect. I am, too. There are things that I want to change/to let go/to delete/to open/to decipher/to reveal but they don’t allow me. Like it’s there, an imprint on my Tabula Rasa. Is there such a thing? Maybe. ‘Cause why would I be saying these things if not, right?
I love God. I love my family. I love my friends. I love my best-est friends. I love my lover. If only it’s enough to love, but what’s worth in loving without kindness, generosity and humility. Maybe that’s why I’m still here, to build what’s broken, to nourish what’s deprived, to discover what’s hidden, to create what’s in the mind.
I am a human being-capable of loving and to be loved in return.
I have conflicts that are yet to be reconciled.
I cry in silence.
I laugh at the lowest of the lowest jokes.
I am alive.
I am me.
☂ I went out the facility immediately to have my break time (at last!) ‘cause I was definitely hungry and I needed food ASAP. Someone was calling behind my back. “Psssst..Pssssst”. I didn’t mind at first (too serious to handle the hunger)
till I heard a chuckle. And when I turned my back…
Surprise ♥… Nothing like the feeling of having someone who made an effort to go all the way from work to cross an island for you and bring you a sweet bundle-especially in the middle of a busy day. In reality, I’m not a good time manager, chaotic in fact, but when others make an intense effort for you even if it costs much of their time like when they have other things to do but still find time for you- makes you realize that you are much appreciated and importantly, respected. Inspiring. Makes me think. :)
Oh well, you made me smile unfathomably and silently all day. So sweet of you. :) Thank you and by the way, they’re really delish. Mama, Shan and I enjoyed it. :)
Septembre 13th, 2012
Wow, I see cobwebs everywhere. Joking aside ;) Now, it’s been like a century! Goodness! Aaaaaaaaaah, feels good to be back once more. ♥
As of now, I still feel unsure of what I’m feeling right now. Not with love because I’m definitely head over heels with with him :), not with family because I know no matter what they’re always there. I just wish I could give more to them. But what is ticking my unsure reality is facing the future. I’m not getting any younger and that’s a fact. People around me are not getting any younger, too…if you know what I mean. It’s like there’s this universal clock that keeps on ticking but it won’t go on forever. And I want to make the best out of that time through unselfish, carefree, no feeling of insecurity ways of living. I want to give back more to people who needs my help. I guess the work I’m in right now surely would help me get through that road. :) Even if it means facing demanding patients, running back and forth the long flight of stairs, chasing deadlines, chasing patients, handling complaints even if it’s not your fault, more headaches, finding exaggerated ways/solutions of solving own mistakes, 48 working hours and low salary and blah..blah…blah. Hahahahahahaahahhaha, not complaining much, eh? But yeah, life goes on like that. But still thankful for this life. :) ‘Cause at the end of the day there’s always something that gets done. Anyway, I’m still crossing my fingers and praying and hoping I’ll finally see/know/feel/do my purpose in life.
“I follow my mind to chase my dreams but then again, I’ll follow my heart more to chase my real dreams. ♥”-Kai Yen
Over and Out ♥
.:Kai’s the Limit l Penny For My Thoughts
I’m jealous of the pinkish cotton candy sky. It’s too sweet despite the rainy atmosphere. And my day’s gray. Foggy, in fact.
I’ve been away for like a decade…
I miss Tumblr, Stumblin’ and Pinnin’…
I miss my page…
I miss doing my thing at home…
I miss messin’ up my walls…
I miss thinking of good things…
I miss my books and paints and papers…
I miss everything that keeps my insane mind away from deep throbbing insanity…
But I’ll know I’ll be able to go back home…soon.
And I will.♥
Coming home soon,
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I’m currently selling this one for a very low price so anyone of you, interested, please feel free to contact me through my email: email@example.com and we’ll talk. I’ll be the one to ship it to you, well, that is, if you’re outside the Philippines. Thank you and I hope someone will knock on my door. Have a great day, to you! ♥
★ Festive Unwinding, poster paint and black pen on white shirt.
★ The Manic Fairy 18x26 cm ,poster paint on paper (135gsm)
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By Pierra C. Labrador for Yahoo! Southeast Asia
There’s nothing like going on a romantic vacation to enjoy quality time, celebrate a special relationship milestone, or even rekindle the sparks with your loved one. And with the wealth of lovely local destinations, you don’t even have to go too far!
Here are four highly recommended Philippine destinations for a romantic getaway.
When you need a quick breather from Manila, Tagaytay is the place to go. Favorite date places include the idyllic Sonya’s Garden (mostly vegetarian dishes, so carnivores be warned), the elegant Antonio’s for an extra special occasion (call to make a reservation at mobile 0918 899 2666), or Buon Giorno at the Cliffhouse Tagaytay complex (reserve the Opium Bed—a popular spot to pop the question!).
For an overnight stay, choose from the luxe Discovery Country Suites, the chic The Boutique Bed & Breakfast, the tranquil T House, the quaint Sonya’s Bed & Breakfast, or the family favorite Taal Vista Lodge. If you’re into wellness, enjoy a cleansing weekend with your sweetheart at the Nurture Spa Village (though you might want to skip the colonics and go straight to the couple’s massage).
There’s something about cool weather that just makes you want to snuggle. If you haven’t been back to Baguio since childhood, it’s time to traverse the zig-zag road with your significant other. Don’t be thrown off by the giant SM mall and the throng of people flooding Session Road; promise, your favorite quaint nooks and crannies still exist, as well as some charming new spots.
Stroll along Burnham Park, order a cup of hot chocolate at Café By The Ruins, have a photo op and shop for souvenirs at Mines View Park, browse some good reads while having coffee or beer at the literary haven Mt. Cloud Bookshop. Relatively new spots to discover include the must-see BenCab museum, Hill Station Tapas Bar & Restaurant, and Mother’s Gardenfor lovers of flowers and organic food. Stay at the cozy, newly-refurbished Casa Vallejoboutique hotel or the stately yet homey The Manor at Camp John Hay. And don’t forget to take home the famous Palaganas Bakery raisin bread at 99 Scout Barrio, just beyond Camp John Hay’s Loakan gate.
Touted as the “quiet Boracay,” Bohol offers lovely white-sand beaches, famous tourist spots, heritage sites, and hospitable people. Most of the beach-front resorts are located in Panglao, including the exclusive Eskaya, the charming Amorita, and the good old Bohol Beach Club.
Visit the Baclayon Tourist Information and Activity Center and go on a dolphin-watching tour. When in Bohol, you must also do the tourist round—have a kooky photo op at theChocolate Hills, be serenaded while enjoying the Loboc River Cruise, visit adorable endangered creatures at Corella tarsier sanctuary, and visit historic churches, including theBaclayon Church, where, if you squint hard enough, you can make out the image of Padre Pio that has mysteriously formed on its outer wall (the island of Bohol is quite small, so you can do all these in a day). And, for a romantic date, treat yourselves to the spa at the hilltop Peacock Garden Luxury Resort and Spa, then indulge in its decadent European cuisine, fine wine and rare cigars.
For the ultimate romantic getaway, head off to Palawan. Even jaded jetsetters are awed by the breathtaking beauty of its dramatic limestone cliffs, virgin islands, and the Puerto Princesa Subterranean River National Park, a UNESCO World Heritage Site and recently declared one of the “Seven New Wonders of the World.”
Palawan is quite large, however, so you’ll have to decide what kind of getaway you want. Honda Bay and Sabang Island are known for their diving and island hopping tours, and Coron for their wreck diving, but for honeymooners, it’s El Nido hands down. There are affordable accommodations in town, but if you’re going to go for broke, choose from the posh Lagen or the charming coastal village-inspired Miniloc island resorts (elnidoresorts.com). Both set in gorgeous limestone coves against lush forests. Don’t miss kayaking in the magical lagoons for an unforgettable experience.
❝I miss the beach. I miss the waters that flow through the emptiness of my soul.❞
“Why do we have to listen to our hearts?” the boy asked, when they had made camp that day.
“Because, wherever your heart is, that is where you’ll find your treasure.”
“But my heart is agitated,” the boy said. “It has its dreams, it gets emotional, and it’s become passionate over a woman of the desert. It asks things of me, and it keeps me from sleeping many nights, when I’m thinking about her.”
“Well, that’s good. Your heart is alive. Keep listening to what it has to say.”
“My heart is a traitor,” the boy said to the alchemist, when they had paused to rest the horses. “It doesn’t want me to go on.”
“That makes sense. Naturally it’s afraid that, in pursuing your dream, you might lose everything you’ve won.”
“Well, then, why should I listen to my heart?”
“Because you will never again be able to keep it quiet. ”
“You mean I should listen, even if it’s treasonous?”
“Treason is a blow that comes unexpectedly. If you know your heart well, it will never be able to do that to you. Because you’ll know its dreams and wishes, and will know how to deal with them.
“My heart is afraid that it will have to suffer,” the boy told the alchemist one night as they looked up at the moonless sky.
“Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself. And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second’s encounter with God and with eternity.”
From “The Alchemist”
❝I see you…❞
.:Janvier 12, 2012: ❝That Spark of Hope❞
Many times I’ve felt so downhearted, constantly battling with my inner conflicts. If not for the people who believe in me, I wouldn’t have that spark of hope I have right now. Ill make it this year. We’ll make it this year. We are fireworks ♥
.:Janvier 3, 2011: ❝The Burn List❞
I wrote down the burn list to cast and burn it in the shadows. It was a list that comprised of all the ill thoughts, promises, habits and deeds in the past that needed to be completely forgotten, lost and let go. After burning it, it was as if a thorn was removed in my heart…a thorn which has been there for years. Cheers to 2012. :)
By: Bonnie Ware
For many years I worked in palliative care. My patients were those who had gone home to die. I was with them for the last three to twelve weeks of their lives.
When questioned about any regrets they had or anything they would do differently, common themes surfaced again and again. Here are the most common five:
1. I wish I’d had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.
When people realize that their life is almost over and look back clearly on it, it is easy to see how many dreams have gone unfulfilled. Most people had to die knowing that it was due to choices they had made, or not made.
From the moment that you lose your health, it is too late. Health brings a freedom very few realize, until they no longer have it.
2. I wish I didn’t work so hard.
This came from every male patient that I nursed. All of the men I nursed deeply regretted spending so much of their lives on the treadmill of a work existence.
3. I wish I’d had the courage to express my feelings.
Many people suppressed their feelings in order to keep peace with others. As a result, they settled for a mediocre existence and never became who they were truly capable of becoming. Many developed illnesses relating to the bitterness and resentment they carried as a result.
4. I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.
Often they would not truly realize the full benefits of old friends until their dying weeks and it was not always possible to track them down. Many had become so caught up in their own lives that they had let golden friendships slip by over the years. There were many deep regrets about not giving friendships the time and effort that they deserved. Everyone misses their friends when they are dying.
5. I wish that I had let myself be happier.
This is a surprisingly common one. Many did not realize until the end that happiness is a choice. They had stayed stuck in old patterns and habits. The so-called ‘comfort’ of familiarity overflowed into their emotions, as well as their physical lives. Fear of change had them pretending to others, and to their selves, that they were content. When deep within, they longed to laugh properly and have silliness in their life again.
Life is a choice. It is YOUR life. Choose consciously, choose wisely, choose honestly. Choose happiness.
There is one thing that this wild west of a world can all celebrate together, and that is New Year’s and New Year’s Eve. It doesn’t matter if you watch your carbon footprint like a hawk or if you drive a Yukon trailing the pelts of baby seals from your bumper. We’re all still going to ring in the coming new year, possibly linked arm and arm while sipping organic champagne.
So in the spirit of green good will, here’s a look at some of New Year Eve celebrations and moments from around the globe.
Red Square, Moscow
Times Square, New York City
Big Ben, London
Sydney Harbor Bridge, Australia
Rio de Janeiro, Brazil
Harbor City Tsim Sha Tsui, Kowloon, Honk Kong
Coast of Norway
When a light bulb burns out, we rarely give it a second thought. You can lend your imagination toward this fragile household item, intent on giving burnt out bulbs a second life as something very different, and aesthetically pleasing. It’s very easy to make, use of turning a light bulb into an oil burner, terrarium and many another interesting things. Used light bulbs, typically destined for the trash bin, could be the setting for an adorable miniature terrarium, practically any clear glass container can contain a tiny greenhouse, providing humidity and warmth to plants. Here are few amazing examples to use as inspiration.
Question: If two people love each other, but they just can’t seem to get it together, when you get to a point, enough is enough?
Answer: NEVER” —The Mexican (Movie)
So how do you know if you’re in a lasting relationship? Here’s what the experts say:
- You feel good. A good relationship makes you feel good about yourself.
- You look forward to spending time with your partner. You don’t need to be with other people or go to events to avoid being alone together. You enjoy spending quality time together even when it’s quiet.
- You respect your partner. You hear yourself bragging about your partner. You say things like: “My husband is a really talented singer-songwriter.” If you find that you’re always talking about yourself, you’re not focused on your partner or the relationship.
- You’re interested in what your partner thinks. You ask your partner’s opinion about issues that are important to you. It’s OK if he or she disagrees with you.
- You accept your partner’s quirks. Everyone has them. Even you! If your partner’s quirks are endearing or tolerable, you’re in good shape. If they really bother you, you should look more closely at the relationship.
- You’re able to work through your problems. It’s natural to have some bumps in the relationship road to true bliss. People in healthy relationships see disagreements as a chance to learn more about their partner. However, if you’re creating problems, or if you think every fight is the “big one” leading to a breakup, you should probably rethink your relationship.
- You feel safe. You’re not afraid of losing your partner.
- You can’t explain why you’re together. Many people coordinate their lives so that they have to be together. But ask yourself if you’re together because you truly want to be. If the answer is “yes,” then you’ll probably stay together. If it’s “no,” you’re bound to have problems — if you haven’t already.
- You don’t compare your partner to others. There will always be someone more beautiful, smarter or more athletic than your partner, but you don’t care because you only want to be with him or her.
One always has to know when a stage comes to an end. If we insist on staying longer than the necessary time, we lose the happiness and the meaning of the other stages we have to go through.
Closing cycles, shutting doors, ending chapters – whatever name we give it, what matters is to leave in the past the moments of life that have finished.
Did you lose your job? Has a loving relationship come to an end? Did you leave your parents’ house? Gone to live abroad? Has a long-lasting friendship ended all of a sudden? You can spend a long time wondering why this has happened.
You can tell yourself you won’t take another step until you find out why certain things that were so important and so solid in your life have turned into dust, just like that. But such an attitude will be awfully stressing for everyone involved: your parents, your husband or wife, your friends, your children, your sister.
Everyone is finishing chapters, turning over new leaves, getting on with life, and they will all feel bad seeing you at a standstill.
Things pass, and the best we can do is to let them really go away.
That is why it is so important (however painful it may be!) to destroy souvenirs, move, give lots of things away to orphanages, sell or donate the books you have at home.
Everything in this visible world is a manifestation of the invisible world, of what is going on in our hearts – and getting rid of certain memories also means making some room for other memories to take their place.
Let things go. Release them. Detach yourself from them.
Nobody plays this life with marked cards, so sometimes we win and sometimes we lose. Do not expect anything in return, do not expect your efforts to be appreciated, your genius to be discovered, your love to be understood.
Stop turning on your emotional television to watch the same program over and over again, the one that shows how much you suffered from a certain loss: that is only poisoning you, nothing else.
Nothing is more dangerous than not accepting love relationships that are broken off, work that is promised but there is no starting date, decisions that are always put off waiting for the “ideal moment.”
Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished: tell yourself that what has passed will never come back.
Remember that there was a time when you could live without that thing or that person – nothing is irreplaceable, a habit is not a need.
This may sound so obvious, it may even be difficult, but it is very important.
Closing cycles. Not because of pride, incapacity or arrogance, but simply because that no longer fits your life.
Shut the door, change the record, clean the house, shake off the dust.
Stop being who you were, and change into who you are.
The first symptom of the process of our killing our dreams is the lack of time. The busiest people I have known in my life always have time enough to do everything. Those who do nothing are always tired and pay no attention to the little amount of work they are required to do. They complain constantly that the day is too short. The truth is, they are afraid to fight the Good Fight.
The second symptom of the death of our dreams lies in our certainties. Because we don’t want to see life as a grand adventure, we begin to think of ourselves as wise and fair and correct in asking so little of life. We look beyond the walls of our day-to-day existence, and we hear the sound of lances breaking, we smell the dust and the sweat, and we see the great defeats and the fire in the eyes of the warriors. But we never see the delight, the immense delight in the hearts of those who are engaged in the battle. For them, neither victory nor defeat is important; what’s important is only that they are fighting the Good Fight.
And, finally, the third symptom of the passing of our dreams is peace. Life becomes a Sunday afternoon; we ask for nothing grand, and we cease to demand anything more than we are willing to give. In that state, we think of ourselves as being mature; we put aside the fantasies of our youth, and we seek personal and professional achievement. We are surprised when people our age say that they still want this or that out of life. But really, deep in our hearts, we know that what has happened is that we have renounced the battle for our dreams – we have refused to fight the Good Fight.
When we renounce our dreams and find peace, we go through a short period of tranquility. But the dead dreams begin to rot within us and to infect our entire being.
We become cruel to those around us, and then we begin to direct this cruelty against ourselves. That’s when illnesses and psychoses arise. What we sought to avoid in combat – disappointment and defeat – come upon us because of our cowardice.
And one day, the dead, spoiled dreams make it difficult to breathe, and we actually seek death. It’s death that frees us from our certainties, from our work, and from that terrible peace of our Sunday afternoons.